This thing feels like some horny slice-of-life anime that accidentally grew a brain. You start as this guy who basically got reshuffled into a new "family" after shit went bad when he was younger, but nobody is actually related. That tiny detail changes the whole vibe. They act like family, they live like family, they fight over stupid stuff like family, but the game keeps poking at that soft spot of "ok, but what if I actually want to fuck them?" And it does not pretend you don’t. The school setting adds this weird double-life feeling: in the morning you’re in uniform, pretending to be normal, then you come back home and your world is full of big tits, tight shorts, and that one pair of yoga pants that should honestly be illegal.

What I liked is how the sandbox part lets you be a bit of a sneaky bastard. You’re not forced into one straight line. You wake up, you check your phone, maybe you jerk off to a photo you grabbed earlier, maybe you go to the bathroom and "accidentally" walk in on someone showering, maybe you go to school and sit in class trying not to pop a full tent because you remember what happened last night on the couch. It’s the little moments that really feel filthy. Like that time I was just clicking through rooms, half distracted, and walked in at the exact time one of the women was alone with a vibrator, legs spread, trying to stay quiet. The animation is short but it hits. Her ass is bouncing slightly, tits moving with her hands, and you have the choice to watch like a creep or interrupt. I picked watch, obviously. No regrets. Well, a few.

The game really loves big asses and huge boobs, like it’s almost a fetish museum sometimes. You’re in the kitchen, you bend down to open a drawer, camera just forgets the drawer and zooms mentally on her ass. In bed scenes, those tits are front and center, and vaginal sex is not some fade-to-black hint, you literally see everything. They like to show you the penetration, the wetness, the slow push in, then suddenly the pace goes crazy and she’s moaning into a pillow so nobody in the next room hears. Sometimes you get sex toys involved, and it actually fits the characters. One girl acts shy as hell, but then you find out she’s been hiding this pink dildo in a stupidly obvious place and using it every time the house is quiet. I got her to admit it in one of the routes and she asked me to "help" her because the toy wasn’t enough anymore. That scene in her room, her on all fours, toy in one hand, you behind her, fucking her while she tries to keep her voice low so the rest of the "family" doesn’t notice, is probably when the game finally clicked for me. It pretends to be wholesome, but everyone’s horny, lonely and pretending not to be, and the game just lets all that pressure leak out in the dirtiest way possible.

It’s weird how this one got under my skin. I opened *Deck of Hearts* expecting another lazy click‑through with the same recycled bodies, but the writing kept pulling me back. It’s just text and cards, right? Except the cards don’t feel like props - they’re little traps for your decisions. You draw one and suddenly you’re in a room that smells like perfume and bad ideas, staring at a redhead who looks like she knows exactly how far you’ll go before folding. The game doesn’t even try to hide its filth; it leans into it like it’s proud of being shameless. And honestly, good. The MC’s voice is messy, horny, insecure, sometimes cruel, which feels way more real than those perfect hero types.

There’s this scene - I won’t spoil too much - but the moment the blonde leans over the table, teasing about “luck,” you realize the cards aren’t random at all. They’re judging you. It’s not subtle, but it works. I laughed when I shouldn’t have, mostly because the dialogue feels like something you’d overhear in a bar where everyone’s pretending not to listen. The corruption angle hits harder than expected; it’s slow, sticky, uncomfortable in the best way. I caught myself clicking slower, reading every line twice, like the words might change if I stared long enough. Sometimes they do. Maybe that’s just me projecting.

If there was an award for “Most Unnecessary Grope That Still Made Sense,” this game wins it. The AI CGs look almost too clean for the dirt they’re showing, like someone tried to polish sin. The MILF character - yeah, you’ll know her when she shows up - has this smug smile that makes the whole plot bend around her. I kinda wish the teen character had more agency, but maybe that’s the point: everyone’s trapped in their own deck. Also, whoever wrote the card descriptions must’ve been drunk or a poet. Hard to tell which. Anyway, I closed the tab and immediately reopened it. That probably says enough.

Alyssia wakes up in the dark like the world forgot her. No memories, no name on her tongue, just this slow echo of fear and heat under the skin. The first thing that cuts through the fog is your voice in her head. Not some noble guardian angel crap, not a perfect hero. Just you, whispering into this pretty little warrior with big soft breasts, thick thighs and that perfect ass you immediately want to see pressed against something hungry. The game doesn’t rush. It lets her stumble through ruined hallways and dead forests, half naked in shredded armor, breathing loud enough that you almost feel it in your own chest. Every sound is close to the ear: the squish of mud, her boots scraping stone, her tiny gasps when she brushes against a corrupted vine that twitches a bit too eager against her legs. You’re not clicking through a checklist. You’re… inside her skull, nudging her toward danger or safety, and the line between those two starts to blur so fast it’s almost funny.

The crazy part is how quiet it gets right before the fucked up stuff happens. No big horror sting, no “watch out!” flashing. She turns a corner, the music goes almost silent, you feel this slow pressure in your chest, and then some shadow thing with too many limbs pins her to a wall and that’s it. Armor bent aside, tits spilling, eyes wide, and you’re choosing what she says, if she fights, if she gives in. First time a monster shoves something thick and wet between her lips, she tries to bite, to resist, gagging around it while another tendril slips between her cheeks and starts teasing her ass. And you can tell the artists had fun here. The AI CG looks like someone begged the model to worship curves. Her body is soft but strong, the way her stomach tightens when she’s lifted up and spread, pussy dripping while she gets filled front and back. Double stuffed, her moans half anger, half confused arousal as you decide if she clings to her lost “honor” or lets that corruption seep deeper. Sometimes the camera lingers on simple things, like a strand of spit connecting her mouth to a fat monster cock after a messy blowjob, or cum leaking out in a slow drip after a brutal creampie that leaves her shaking and glassy eyed. And yeah, I wish the UI text wasn’t that tiny in one of the dialogue menus, but anyway, back to her getting railed.

There’s this romantic thread sneaking through the filth that caught me off guard. If you keep pulling her toward softer choices, she’ll start talking to you like you’re her lover, not just a voice. She blushes when you tell her she did good, even when she’s on her knees, face splattered, swallowing every last drop like it’s the only thing keeping her sane. You can steer her into something sweeter, tender kisses before sex, the way she slowly relaxes when a human-looking partner takes her gently, sliding into her wet pussy while she wraps her legs around their waist and actually smiles. Or you can drag her down to the point she doesn’t even flinch when something huge pushes into her ass and pussy at the same time, her mind so twisted by you that multiple penetration feels like home now. The game remembers those choices. She learns to beg. Or she learns to love. Or both, which is honestly the best outcome. One run she ends in a warm embrace, another she’s a used little toy for whatever monsters crawl out of the dark, dripping cum, eyes lost, completely yours in the worst way. And not gonna lie, the moment she looks at the “camera” and whispers “Stay with me… don’t leave my head” after everything you made her do? That hit harder than it should.

UrbanHeat feels like someone mashed a horny summer slice-of-life with a lazy phone time-waster and then let an AI paint over it while slightly drunk. You’re this guy licking his wounds in a sleepy coastal town that pretends to be wholesome, but every time a girl leans over a counter or bends to pick something up, your brain just goes “yeah, no, this place is cursed.” The game really leans on that slow burn teasing. You’re not thrown into sex in five clicks. Instead it’s a lot of lingering shots of thighs, shirts that “accidentally” ride up, older women putting their huge tits basically on the table while they “ask” for help, neighbors who’re suddenly way too friendly with their hands. There’s this scene early on where you’re stuck on a balcony, pretending to scroll Instagram, and you can watch the woman across the yard stretching on her patio. She thinks nobody sees her, and she gets bolder, and you get dialogue choices that are basically: keep watching like a creep, try to look away, or take the risk and pull your phone up for a sneaky shot. I shouldn’t have enjoyed that as much as I did, but yeah, I did.

What actually surprised me is how much they lean into your character being kind of a perv in training instead of some smooth porn god. You’re awkward. Your hand shakes in some scenes. There’s a very specific moment where a mature neighbor “accidentally” presses your hand against her ass while you’re helping her in the kitchen, and you can either pull back or just leave your palm on that soft, huge curve and say nothing. The build-up to that touch feels better than some full-on sex scenes in other games. Later on, when she jerks you off under the table while talking about totally normal stuff, you already know that hand, that body, so it hits harder. The handjob scenes are actually weirdly detailed, too. They show small stuff, like her slowing down to stare at your face, licking her thumb before going back to stroking the tip, or using both hands around your shaft because, yeah, size difference. There’s one scene in a parked car where a younger woman leans over and starts teasing you with her lips but keeps stopping right before taking you in her mouth, blowing warm air instead. It annoyed the shit out of me but in the best way. I literally had Chrome on my phone in one hand, other hand busy, muttering “come on, just suck it already.” When she finally does, it’s sloppy and noisy and they actually let it run long enough that you feel like your character’s legs are about to lock up.

Since it is a sandbox, the pacing can go weird. Sometimes you’re doing small favors around town to “earn” scenes and it feels like you’re playing errand boy instead of pussy hunter. I got stuck for way too long trying to trigger one particular night event with a thick single mom in yoga pants, and it turned out I just had to poke at a random location icon that looked like background detail. That kind of stuff makes me grumpy, especially on mobile where your thumb misses tiny UI elements and you’re just tapping around like an idiot while some AI-generated milf is frozen in the same pose. Speaking of that, the AI art is a bit all over the place, but in an oddly charming way. Sometimes the tits are perfect heavy melons that look like they’d spill out if she breathed too hard, and sometimes a wrist is bent like a broken Barbie. Asses though, holy shit. They really nailed the big asses. Tight shorts digging into soft flesh, little panty lines, that deep curve from lower back to cheeks that makes you want to grab and bite. The voyeur side of it is where the game feels strongest to me: peeking through blinds at a shower, catching a glimpse of someone kneeling between legs, hearing muffled slurping through a thin wall. It’s not subtle, but it pretends to be. I wish the sound matched that energy more, the audio is kinda generic wet noises and basic moans, but after a few loops I stopped noticing and just focused on the visuals and the tension. And yeah, sometimes the dialogue is cringe, sometimes the AI CG throws a six-fingered hand at you for one frame, sometimes the sandbox flow gets in the way of the horny, but when you finally corner one of these big-titted, big-ass women and she drops on her knees, wipes drool off her chin with the back of her hand and keeps stroking, all that mess suddenly feels like part of the charm.

Jake comes crawling back home with his life completely fucked, and the house basically looks at him like “oh, you thought you were done with us?” The place is out on the edge of nowhere, quiet in that wrong way, where the shadows feel like they’re paying attention. His “family” is there, but they’re not really how he remembers them. The milf who used to worry if he wore a scarf outside is suddenly dressing like she knows exactly how her tits bounce when she leans over his bed. The cute sister-type who used to steal his hoodies now “forgets” to wear pants in the hallway. Everybody’s acting normal and absolutely not normal at the same time. They smile too long. They touch him too casually. They say things that sound caring and then twist right at the end and feel like a threat. Or a promise. Hard to tell with a hard-on.

What makes it hit different is how the erotic stuff is tangled into the horror, not on top of it. One moment Jake is staring at a door that keeps closing itself, hearing breathing on the other side. The next he’s in the bathroom, and the milf is in there already, towel slipping, water dripping down those ridiculous heavy tits, and she just watches him watch her. No “oops, I didn’t hear you come in.” Just silent eye contact and the smallest smirk, like she’s waiting for him to break first. Then later you find out she’s hiding something way worse than a horny mood. A phone he didn’t know she had. Recordings she shouldn’t have. Angry texts from some unknown number that knows exactly where he sleeps and who he’s been touching. There’s blackmail threads crawling through the whole house, everybody has dirt on everybody, and the game likes to tease you with “ok, you can say no here” right when your cock is already screaming yes. And if you push into the more fucked up paths, the netorare and corruption bits hit pretty heavy. Watching the girl you’ve been quietly obsessing over get bent open by something not exactly human, eyes rolled back in full ahegao while you’re forced to watch or even help, is the kind of scene that stays in your head when you’re trying to scroll Twitter later and pretend you’re normal. Some of the supernatural stuff really leans into that: hands that look like yours touching her first, voices in her ear that sound like you telling her to open wider, a futanari “relative” that suddenly shows up in certain branches with a cock that absolutely ruins whoever she gets her hands on. There is one scene where you’re sneaking through the hall at night and catch the milf on all fours in front of a door that should be locked, getting railed by something you can barely see, and when she looks back, her face is half hers, half something else, drool and tears and total sex-drunk ahegao, and she still whispers your name instead of the monster’s. That shit is messed up and hot at the same time, which feels illegal but here we are.

What I kinda love and kinda hate is how petty some of the choices feel. You’re thinking “ok, I’m going to solve this paranormal mystery” and then the game hits you with “do you peek at her showering again or not?” and it actually matters. You ignore her once and later she is cold as ice, you peek too often and the whole vibe becomes exhibitionist on purpose, like she starts leaving doors open just to see how far she can break you. There are lesbian scenes that show up only if you screw up a relationship so badly that the girls stop giving themselves to you and start fucking each other instead, and it lands more like a punishment than a reward. Kind of hurts in that good ntr way, like the game is laughing in your face, telling you “yeah, you had your chance.” The blackmail routes get properly nasty: one of my favorite messed up bits was finding a hidden folder on a laptop, opening a video and realizing it’s your girl being fucked while she keeps saying she’s only doing this so “he doesn’t leak the stuff about you.” Not sure if it’s more horny or humiliating, but I clicked replay like five times anyway. And then some endings flip everything, turning you from scared loser to the actual corrupt thing lurking in the house, twisting the women, parading them half-naked in the living room while anyone or anything can watch. I kept telling myself “ok, that’s too far” while still picking the dirtiest choice every time. My only real complaint is stupid: sometimes a text box covers the exact part of the animation I’m staring at, and it pisses me off more than the ghost stuff. I adjust the window, I click ahead too fast, I miss a line, then I have to backscroll like an idiot. Still, when the game hits one of those perfect horror-sex combos, like hearing scratching on the walls while the milf rides you so hard her tits slap against her chest and the light flickers and something is definitely watching from the corner, all that annoyance just sort of melts into “ok, one more scene, then I stop.” Which is a lie, obviously.

You come back from a boring business trip with a head full of spreadsheets and hotel porn, expecting your cute newlywed wife to jump on you at the door. Instead she’s napping in the middle of the afternoon, hair messy, phone too close to her hand, and you get this weird little punch in the gut that something’s off. Not “she forgot to feed the cat” off. More like “someone else might have been in this bed” off. She smiles, kisses you, acts sweet, but that tiny delay before she answers simple questions just keeps scratching at your brain. The game takes that small uncomfortable feeling and just keeps poking it, harder and harder, while you try to convince yourself you’re just tired and paranoid. Spoiler: you’re probably not.

The whole thing hangs on that one stupid selfie she sent you while you were away. You know the one. Lingerie that you didn’t even know she owned, tits squeezed up like she’s trying to win a contest, eyes a little too needy. At first you were just horny and you jerked off to it alone in your hotel room. Later, back home, you stare at it again and finally see it: three fingertips on the edge of the frame, some stranger’s hand trying to stay out of view. That tiny detail turns your brain into a crime scene. From there the story slips between your perspective and hers. On your side, you’re walking around the house like a detective in denial, clicking through small things that suddenly feel like clues: the subtle smell on the sheets that is not your cologne, her panties in the laundry that are more lace and less “comfortable wife mode”, her slightly glazed look when you touch her, like she’s comparing you to someone else in her head. On her side, it’s this slow, messy slide from “happy new bride” into “I shouldn’t do this” and then right into “I want him to do it again” while her body language gets looser and her ahegao face shows up more often than you want to admit turns you on a bit too.

Sex scenes aren’t just random porn stops, they sneak up on you. One moment you’re arguing in the kitchen about something stupid, next moment the game cuts to how she spent that same time earlier with another guy, bra on the floor, those big breasts bouncing while she rides him and moans into a pillow so the neighbors won’t hear. Creampies that hit way too raw because you know that same pussy is what you’re supposed to be “making love” to later like some clueless husband. Sometimes you get to fuck her too, and that’s the worst part, because the CG shows her eyes rolling back a bit more when she’s remembering his cock instead of yours. Lingerie that she wears “for you” is actually what he already tore off once. There’s this mystery thread running under everything, not just “who is he” but “how far did she go, and when did it really start” and the more you see her side, the less clean the answer feels. It’s not obedient wife corrupted in one night. It’s little choices, late messages, risky selfies, one kiss that should have stopped but didn’t, and then your whole married life is sitting on the edge of a knife and everyone is pretending not to see the blood. And yeah, the story is kinda linear, but honestly, when you’re watching your own wife slowly turn into someone else’s favorite toy, you don’t feel like you have many choices anyway.

Jennifer starts as this kinda stuck up, kinda lost girl who suddenly has to deal with dead dad, weird inheritance, and oh yeah, surprise, you’re a witch now. Not the cute cartoon type. More like “your body is a fucking weapon and everyone around you is low‑key a perv about it” type. Game drops you in with her already stacked like a hentai thumbnail: huge tits, fat ass, tight clothes that absolutely are not work‑appropriate, and then lets the world react to that in the worst possible ways. First thing that hit me was how much the camera loves her. It keeps finding angles where her boobs fill half the screen when she talks to someone, or when she climbs stairs the shot sort of lags behind her ass like a horny dog. It’s not subtle. Sometimes it’s actually too much, I caught myself trying to click past dialog and just staring at jiggle physics like an idiot. Then again, that’s kind of the point, right? Or maybe the point is something else, I forgot halfway when the shop guy “accidentally” pressed up against her back during a cutscene and the game just lets it happen.

What I liked way too much is how the game treats “private” moments. Jennifer’s room becomes this little porn stage. You come back after some event, she’s annoyed or stressed or maybe just bored, and you can send her to bed or to shower or just make her laze around. That’s where the voyeur thing kicks hard. You’re not exactly roleplaying her, it feels more like you’re watching her and giving little nudges. She changes clothes, bends over, checks herself in the mirror, and you start thinking “ok, this is harmless,” and then she sits on the bed, hand under panties, and suddenly it’s not harmless at all. There’s a scene where she tries to masturbate quietly because someone is sleeping nearby, and the camera just hangs on her face, half guilt, half need, while you hear soft wet sounds. Nothing fancy, but it hit like porn hidden in a normal game. Except this is not a normal game at all, obviously. She keeps telling herself “just a quick one” and you can choose to push it further or cut it short. I always say I’ll be tasteful and then, yeah, no.

Outside the bedroom, the sandbox stuff makes it feel like a horny daily routine sim. You wander around the town or mansion, talk to people, poke at quests, all that typical RPGM structure, but almost every location has some chance for Jennifer to be touched, brushed, cornered. Some scenes feel like accidents: a crowded hallway where hands stay a bit too long, a drunk guy “stabilizing” her by grabbing her waist and obviously sliding lower, or a perv pretending to sleep while his hand drifts on her thigh. Other scenes are straight out assault and the game doesn’t exactly moralize about it. It actually bothered me at first how often folks just grope her like she’s public property, and then five minutes later I was saving right before those scenes to replay them. The sleep stuff is fucked up in a way that’s so deliberate the game practically winks at you. Camera lingers on her sleeping form, clothes a little displaced, breathing slow, and then someone’s shadow leans in. Or sometimes it’s just you watching her sleep and zooming in on skin, which is weirdly intimate and horny at the same time. The 3D look sells all that, by the way. Faces are a bit plastic sometimes, but her curves are ridiculous in motion. I hated how stiff some animations are, except during the actual lewd parts where suddenly everything moves just enough to make you stare. It’s kind of trashy, kind of hot, kinda repetitive, and I still found myself sneaking another “quick run” on my lunch break at the office with Slack open on second monitor like that would save me if someone walked in.

Ethan and Ava feel like that couple you see on Instagram and think, ok this is fake, nobody is this in love. But in this game it actually feels real at first. They text cute things, stupid horny things, “I miss your mouth” kind of messages, little inside jokes. You get all of that right in your phone, like you are reading a chat that maybe you were not supposed to see. And because everything is on mobile style, it is way too easy to forget this is fiction and not your own fucked up life. Their sex talk is not shy at all. She sends him “remember how you filled me up on the kitchen counter” and you can feel his dick wake up through the screen. They talk about how she loves when he pushes deep, how she wants him to wreck her again as soon as he comes back, how she can still feel his last creampie when she tries to sleep. It is sweet and dirty at the same time. The kind of romance where you think destiny finally did something right for once. A marriage where love and lust are holding hands and laughing at everyone else. You get lulled into this comfort, like oh ok this is just a horny couple sexting, cute. And then that one message drops from the other woman and the whole vibe just flips.

This “best friend” character hits like a ghost from another timeline. You feel immediately that her place in Ethan’s story is not small. She throws that word “favor” and suddenly every line of text has weight. She knows exactly what she did for him before, he knows, and you as a player slowly peel it away while also deciding how much of a coward or bastard he is going to be. She teases him, not just sexually, but psychologically. She reminds him of that old debt, then adds little pieces of filth on top. A picture that is way too revealing. A message where she describes how she imagines his tongue on her while his wife is in the next room. A “joke” where she mentions sharing him, then pretends it was nothing. And you sit there, phone in your hand, feeling that mix of arousal and “oh fuck this is a bad road” that only this kind of story can give. The netorare angle creeps in slow. At first it is just tension. Then you read a choice like “Tell her no” or “Ask what exactly she wants” and you already know the second option is you stepping into hell. She talks about taking what is “owed” from his perfect little wife too, hinting at situations where Ava is not as safe as she thinks, all through texts that feel uncomfortably possible. One second you are reading Ava sending him a selfie in a tight top, saying she wants his cock buried inside her again. Next second you are reading the friend describing how she would make Ava moan for someone that is not her husband. The sex descriptions when things start to cross the line are blunt. Tongues, throats, asses, messy cum on big tits, no soft filters. Ahegao faces described like “she looks ruined and happy and wrong at the same time.” The corruption is not just bodies, it is that slow slide where Ethan goes from “I can never do this to her” to “maybe just one time, maybe she never finds out” and you are the one pressing the answer. The game makes you complicit in every dirty little betrayal, like fate is not written in the stars but in the stupid horny text you choose to send. And somehow that feels way more dangerous than any high fantasy epic with swords and magic. Here it is just you, your phone, two women, and one favor that should have stayed unpaid.

Honeymoon Shift feels like walking into a small private gallery room where someone hung only four paintings, but each one is about fucking your whole idea of trust. It starts almost sweet: Viktor finally got his honeymoon with Taylor, sun, cocktails, their bodies relaxed, that kind of soft vacation horniness where you look at your wife’s bikini and already think about peeling it off later. Then another couple shows up. You know the type from resorts: good smiles, too touchy, too curious, a bit too interested in what ring size your wife wears and how long you’ve been together. The game lets you sit in Viktor’s head while that interest slowly turns from “friendly” to “I want to see your wife’s tits bounce under someone else.” And you are the one who decides how far this goes, even when it hurts to click.

What I like is how it doesn’t throw porn at you right away. It teases. A hand brushing a thigh under the table. A slightly drunk kiss that lasts one second too long. The first time Taylor gives you a handjob in the hotel shower after she spent the whole dinner laughing with the other guy, it doesn’t feel like simple fan service, it feels defensive. Like she’s jerking you off to prove something, to herself, to you, to him. The animation is quiet, wet strokes, your cum on her fingers, and the camera stays in just the wrong distance so you stare at her face more than at your dick. That annoyed me and I liked it at same time. Later, when she kneels for oral and her lips are shining around your shaft, you already have doubts in your head if she’s replaying another man there. You know nothing really terrible happened yet, but your stomach already starts to twist. Or maybe I’m just paranoid. Maybe I’m not. Hard to say.

There is this one path where you let the flirting breathe instead of shutting it down, and it slowly corrupts the whole trip. A small “harmless” kiss by the pool when everyone is tipsy. A “truth or dare” that obviously is just an excuse to get Taylor half naked in front of them, big tits pressing against a half-open robe. She pretends she’s embarrassed, but her nipples tell a different story. Sex with her after that is rougher, hotter, like she’s turned on by her own cheating even if she’s not fully admitting it. When you push into her and end with a creampie, she squeezes you with this greedy little shiver that feels wrong and perfect. The game doesn’t scream that you’re being cuckolded, it just lets you notice small things: the way she checks her phone, the way she adjusts her swimsuit when that other man looks, how her hips roll a bit different when you fuck her from behind. You get multiple endings, and not all are dramatic; some are just quietly cruel. In one, you keep the relationship, but you can’t unsee what she did with someone else’s mouth and cock, and the game lets you sit in that, like staring at a painting too long until you see all the cracks. I will say though, sometimes Viktor’s inner talk goes in circles and you just want him to shut up so you can watch his wife get ruined properly, but then again, that tension is what makes the later scenes of swinging and quiet hotel-room corruption hit harder. It’s less about how many holes get filled and more about how heavy your chest feels when she smiles and you don’t know if that smile is still only yours.